Getting Old

I was driving the work the other day and a thought bubbled up into my mind. "I'm getting old." I fight this thought often, but this one was persistent. It just wouldn't let go.

The new iPhone went on sale that morning and I had originally planned on purchasing it as soon as it became available. Once I was on the website, I started questioning my behavior. I thought about how much money it cost, and whether I should spend it on a phone. As I went back and forth on my decision I continued to navigate the website.

I considered the fact that my phone works fine and is in no need of replacement. My monthly bill would increase as I would be charged for 3g service. Will the phone help me get any closer to my goals, or is it just another expensive distraction? Would the purchase in fact distract me from my goals and inhibit my ability to find my new path?

I weighed these questions and my goals in life and I decided that no, I'm not old yet. With a grin on my face, I closed the web browser on my iPhone and I started to concentrate on my driving.

Single Life...

Over one year ago I had a realization. I had essentially just gone from relationship to relationship for years. I lived with a girl, and within a few weeks of moving out I had another girlfriend. I started wondering if there was something that I was missing. Some lesson that I needed to learn. In search of some further enlightenment, and a different outcome than what I had grown accustomed to, I decided not to date for a year.

The year was up in March, and my first thought is that I have become more difficult to deal with than I was before. I think that the lesson that I learned was to limit my compromises. I was a very flexible person before, and although I am still an easy going person, I don't compromise like I used to. I have really enjoyed being alone for the first time in my life. The byproduct is that I have become more self-centered and less focused on others.